Poetry

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a smear of sculpture make more harmony out of this concrete world, a drop of beauty from our hearts hugging people passing on the street bring more health to this ill world, a splatter of truth make some potential dreams shown the path to possibility

CREATE BEAUTY, you never know what can happen

 

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Community Living or Why Siblings are good for your spiritual growth

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I was an only child, and homeschooled to boot and believe me, my education was exceptional. My mom was a creative badass who believed that colonial williamsburg counted as history class and grocery shopping built math and kitchen skills. These things have served me well in life, not to mention a serious self-motivated drive. However, life, and my own choices are throwing me another curve ball called “getting along with other people”, and it is a tumultuous stage of growth, and more than a little embarrassing to be going through at good god am I actually closer to 30 than 20? When did that happen?!? Ah, let’s not think about that, anyway, the point is, I choose to pursue a path in life that led me smack dab in the center of the family/community I always wished I’d had and now I’m dealing with both sides of the consequences of that decision.
Dealing with 8 people’s opinions on laundry, basic hygiene, food preferences and don’t even mention the word dishes, is WAAAAAY more complicated than I could have ever previously imagined. I’m finally beginning to understand why people first started going to war. And we don’t even have the background of social expectation/tradition to help us along- it’s all trial and error. Thank goodness all of us are, generally, patient, committed and (thank whatever deity you recognize) pacifists.
But on a personal level, learning how to let go and not micro-manage, be open to new ways of doing things and generally learning to accept that there are people in the world who care about me even dealing with my crazy on a day to day basis (glitter, chocolate addiction, extreme emotional sensitivity which the glitter and chocolate help to medicate) has been a much-needed area of growth and balm to my isolated soul.
When it comes to my romantic relationship, I’ve been learning something else, something that is often said but hard to put into practice in the modern world- That you don’t have to be, and in fact shouldn’t be, everything to one person. Having this community has allowed me to start taking the perspective of, hey, maybe my romantic relationship can be just that- romantic. Since all of the stress of day to day life and major decisions, etc are generally shared amongst the whole community, not to mention hobbies and companionship, it’s much easier to just be romantic love, comfort and fun with my chosen lover. Don’t get me wrong, we still argue plenty, but I feel that I’m finally beginning understand what true day to day romance and connection are, both within an “intimate” relationship and on a wider social level as well.

Summer Bar-b-que

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As a perfect prelude to a miraculous few days the weather cleared up on monday, right as Pam and Brian’s daughter Tiffany- the remaining family we had not met- and her husband and kids came down to visit for a few days. Family friends showed up with their 3 month old and before we knew it, summer kicked in full swing with a massive outdoor barbeque with 12 adults, four kids, 9 chickens, I don’t even know how many cats anymore, and a dog just to make everything a little less chaotic. Paradise in a backyard.

I have witnessed a miracle of life in watching this progression of events- from chance meetings one after another that have lead to people connecting to build dreams I never imagined could truly happen before. We had an impromptu community meeting to discuss issues, ideas, concerns and set plans. And it happened automatically. I’ve always felt like dealing with people was frustrating, oftentimes, impossible. I feared that there were only selfish, uncaring people in the world, that I would wander alone forever. Without even realizing how much I wanted and needed a family, one ended up surrounding me, and it is openly growing everyday.

As I was toasting rolled oats in a frying pan this morning, cook the bacon first and toast in the gristle, Tiffany and I talked about the idea of combining forces on this, my blog and hers, so that between the two of us we could post more easily as I have many projects and she has many children. I add eggs and cream to the oats to cook it, and as we shredded cheese and chopped fresh fruit and avocado to top the oatmeal with we discuss book ideas. I love collaborations- all the beauty and creativity of a project, with the support and enhancement of loved ones. Kindred spirits are rare treasures. And with this new influence this page may be coming to you under a new name- The Nature Spirit. ( I have also been informed, repeatedly, that not everyone will think of the old english spelling of Faerie while looking this site up- simplicity has it’s usefulness I guess)

Zoe and I took Tiffany on her first Girls’ Night Out in, well, enough years she didn’t remember anymore. We arrived at Sonia’s house in town, proceeded to kick her boyfriend out of his own room( he was smart enough to bow out gracefully when girl number 6 showed up- a wise man knows when he’s out-numbered) and leave us to our sacred feminine goddess time. We turned up the music, danced wildly, laughed and talked to wake up the next few blocks and made almond-butter cherry chocolate chip cookies- Sonia’s recipe. She is now a contender in the ever ongoing cookie war for “greatest cookie ever”- a very scientific and technical title that can only be conferred after many years of tasting and debating. Consistency is key of course.

After a chance to let loose, hug, laugh, support and care for each other, we were all finally able to go back to our lover’s revitalized and strong. Apparently it had a major effect because I caught Aaron helping to hang laundry without me asking and even before running off to the shooting range. The effects of women coming together can be terrifying ;P

Tiffany had to return home this morning, but I am certain of seeing her again soon, and look forward to further adventures with a new part of my family.

Love to all!

xoxo

V

Paint Fumes become a Gypsy Vardo

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Aaron is home! He got in late last night to an overwhelming change in the environment- the entire RV redecorated. (Pics to come- even I was recovering from this one). I have spent the last four days, from 7 am to 8 pm cleaning, organizing, repainting, dyeing and redecorating the entire place. And the rest of the community helped as well- Zoe helped me inside, Brian and Sakka made shelves and cleaned up the campground by clearing out more space for a workshop area, and Momma Pam was support staff with dinner and cookies every night for fuel. we’ve had Lemon Bars, No-Bake Cookies, Coconut cranberry chocolate macaroons and Poo-kies, chocolate cookies with peanut butter chips(they look like poo, get it? I know, way to many boys in this household!)

It has been gorgeous weather for Oregon, sunny and warm, perfect for the job I was doing, as we needed to have the windows open because of all the fumes. The kittens have started to come out of the greenhouse on their own, though there is a lot of hissing and arched backs about silly things like foot steps and chickens. Right now the chickens are bigger and picking on the kittens, but soon, that battle will go a different direction. There may be a recipe for shredded chicken sandwiches if they don’t start behaving. I’ve readjusted my schedule to rise with the sun and it’s been a beautiful transformation. I love the quiet feeling of the morning to drink tea and write my story. I sit in my robe to meditate and journal for a while, then move to writing. I’ve found the robe to be particularly inspiring. One reads fantasy in a robe, writing it in the same mode just feels condusive to the creative process. By the time I’m done the sun is fully up, as is everyone else, and the day is ready to start.

There is a 9 year old granddaughter visiting Pam and Brian, and it’s been fun to have a kid around, she has such a quirky perspective on everything, still in the stage of just saying what she thinks, though I’ve been forced to bite my tongue more times than I can count when she’s made a comment that any response too is just entirely inappropriate. But she’s been forcing us to slow down and realize what’s going on around us. We’ve made daisy chains and fern leaf fairy wings, and collaborated to get revenge on Uncle Sakka’s teasing (there was a lot of water and glitter involved :D)

In doing so much work in such a short amount of time, the last few days have been almost damaging in the amount of stress I’ve put on my body. So, when I reached the point of muscles starting to give out from overwork and shaking from anxiety, I reach for passionflower herb. About two teaspoons dried to a cup of hot water (I use less, but I’m sensitive to, well, everything), works as a anti-anxiety, sedative and even has properties to promote muscle repair. It’s often used by bodybuilders to build up damaged tissues. If you are trying to get into shape, it’s excellent to help handle the pain of getting back to the gym.

Now that the RV is redecorated I finally have a proper place to put all of my medical supplies and herbs and so on. I was very happy for Aaron’s comment “Now it looks like a proper gypsy vardo in here!” With green, yellow and purple walls, silver trim, glitter accents, and blue and wine dyed couch, I should hope it looks gorgeous! And now that it’s all “finished” (it’s my pet project, it will never really be finished, of course), I can get back to, well, sanity. Zoe’s first comment to Aaron was “Yeah, she went a little psycho while you were gone”- yup, I exploded my sanity and rainbows and glitter came out, but everyone expected that anyway! We did learn lots of fun things such as: always get the paint with primer, the few extra dollars will save you half the work, double check what supplies you have and always get a little more that you think you’ll need, Rit liquid dye is the only dye worth buying, chalkboard paint is epic, roller curtains are evil, chicken feathers make fun texture when dipped in glitter paint and most importantly, if you’re going to get high off of that many paint fumes, do it with a friend, it’s way more fun 😀